Fucker.

I found $100 in my mother’s iphone case.
I didn’t want it so I left it there.
I really want to cry right now but I can’t because it makes me feel weak.
I also feel like an idiot and that I should keep my mouth shut and never speak about my emotions ever again.

I’m also going to go to a public pool tomorrow

What is wrong with me?
I can’t stand it. I hate ring around really sweet people because they make me feel like an asshole. They’re just so sweet that I can’t help it. I want to burst out crying so much.
I feel so bad. How am I ever going to live like this?
I just feel so selfish ad so dumb that I don’t know anymore. I don’t know what I fell into. I can’t tell if it depression or if it’s something worse. Its just killing me slowly and I can’t stand it.
I promise: I will be happy, I’ll make everything better. I’ll get my life back on track. I’ll try to actually love living

Scoffs at self because
I hate my face.
Just
UGH WHY CAN’T I BE PRETTY OR average?

I get told about cuts. Probably infected ones. I know it’s tempting and I want to do it but I won’t.
Just, the thing that actually made me think and actually listen was when Brian said something about me talking about cuts and will probably drive me to actually start doing it again.
I didn’t want to Stand there and cry my eyes out because someone made me shut up.
I really appreciate that.
It’s really the first time someone stopped me.
Either way, I am thankful for what happened.

And then there’s the friend that cuts and tells me. We have the weirdest relationship ever. But I love her and I care a lot but I won’t try to stop her because she can stop herself, if she wanted to.

I spent the rest of the day at Felicia’s.

Just.. I keep imagining that if I did cut at school, wouldn’t it be kind of weird is the blood was visible through my pants? That’s like a horrible thigh period.

Maybe I should shut up and just stay quiet.
Guys, I still have the problem with the dumb “you’re still ugly so, cover your face” or “everyone is looking at your horrid face”
Ok tran just shut the fuck up.

Ftoo scared to text anyone because it would probably end up with Anthony taking my phone and sending “penis up the ass”

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I’m going to tell everyone about this

Today: we went to DK and stuff happened this girl vomited on herself and w/e fast forwarding and then there’s now
I am scared. I don’t know how I can deal with myself beig this scared and wanting to lock myself away in my room and waiting till daylight appears.
No one is answering my calls. It feels like I turned invisable and I can see everything but everyone else can’t see me.
I just don’t know what I should do. Should I just wait for morning to come or should I just go to sleep as a coward?

stardunes replied to your post: Freaks out because I am invited and idk what to do…
Just go to it! It doesn’t hurt to stop by. If you don’t like being there you can leave. :P

Ok, I should just do that
Ty

JUST
ANSWER
THE
PHONE
PLEASE OMFG
I GET JEALOUS AN HURT A LOT TOO BUT I DON’T SHOW IT

5/16/12

Today, I woke up to a text from someone.

I won’t say anymore

distinctmemory:

thorhead:

do you think when johnny depp agrees to be in a movie with a different director he goes home at night and tim burton is just there with his face pressed against the window and johnny has to close the curtains to avoid feeling guilty

oh my god

thank you tran

<3